Ghandi couldn't have said it better. If idealist picture a perfect world, they haven't found it quiet yet.

you know what bothers me. those little miss perfect families seen on television. well, my family is great but we're no picture perfect family. i guess i'm just jealous and bitter of those seen on tv. it's kinda hard to believe any family can be like that. those ones that never get into an arguement, those kids that can get anythign they want, those families that are always seen to be home and never at work yet they seem to have a rich ass house as well as rich clothes, and their house is ALWAYS neat and tidy, also, if the family isn't snuggled up together watching a family movies they are probabaly in the kitchen baking cookies together. unbelievable.

project is probably is killing my time for the next two weeks. yes. i hate projects. give me 10 exams, and i'd gladly have it. projects? no freaking way. i can't wait to meet exams. i miss them. i have 2 projects reports and 2 project presentation to be handed in the next 5 days! YAY! i might just kill someone. i do realize that i need to get my game face on. i haven't even really been trying with school for this semester. i need to change that. really, i do. honest to god truth.

i'm stuck. it's all coming back. feelings you have but dont want to feel. the fact that you don't want to risk anything again. you don't want to risk yourself because you know you're gonna come crashing down and you're going to get hurt. your wounds are going to re-open and there you are. you can't deny it. you can't control it. you just let it happen. let it consumes you. until it's finished.