friendship is difficult to build. trust me. it's not easy as it looks. it doesn't take a while to make someone your best friend. it never happens that away. you always start as a normal friend. it doesn't come overnight either.

you don't want to throw your years of friendships just like that. no. everyone has flaws, everyone is not perfect. i don't get some people. they claim that you're their best friend but they simply can't accept the little flaws that come with you. *shrug*.

bitching people behind their back is nothing new to anyone. please don't tell me, you've never done it before. is it normal? yes. is it wrong? no. if you are bitching people, does that mean you hate them? no. well, it depends on individual i supposed. i love it for the sake of fun. but hey, who am i, or you to judge on others?

to those of you who have changed the way you think, act, look, and feel just to put on a new image are full of shit. i mean, just because you cover up your old image of being yourself and what you were, doesnt mean it'll make your life any better. you may be mr/ms popular, you may have more "friends" but your head is fucked in its own way. what's the point of being what you are not? yeah, cause being someone who has a new image and leaving your old friends behind will sure help you. when something ever happens in future, don't come running back to those who were real to you, who were caring about you. run to those who are fake and believe me, watch yourself get burned. i don't want to be a bitch like those who hold fake images. i don't want to be fake and i don't want to live under a new image that i'm not comfortable with, i don't want to have plenty of fake friends or live a fake life.

so if any of the above apply to you, you might want to reconsider or don't.. for all i care.

i'm not here to add fuel to the flames. but i'm writing this for the sake of you, me, everyone's.

and if friends are supposed to tell one another their deepest secrets, i guess i have no friends.