"Now that I can see you, i don't think you're worth a second glance."
Dashboard Confessional


what is it with people that find pleasure in making one another jealous. it's the arrogance and the nature of wanting to be better than one another that makes us so sickening. jealous of you? in your dreams. what is there for us to be jealous of in the first place? we have everything that you don't.


funny how little people actually know about you yet is quick to assume every gawd damn fake lie they think you lead them into when all you've been doing is walking straight.

i don't get some people. they just want to find things to complain about, see the negative in every positive issue, see the wrong in every right, and find the lie in every truth. when are they going to open their shallow eyes one day and see that everything is alright and they are ok. not everything is wrong. sometimes if they take everything for granted. when it's all gone. what's left for them? nothing but a bed of regrets. but some fuckers would obviously still blame other people. stupid people would never learn.

i think everyone needs their own secrets and once they are thrown away, you're left with nothing for yourself. i have pages of secrets, confidential poetry, no one ever knows what goes on in my mind, they have no idea what i wake up to. and i'm going to keep it that way forever. is it wrong now to keep our own secret?


why are reputations so important in one's mind. so what if they think negative about you. i hate when people get all worked up when they find out someone hates them. OH MY GAWD! THEY DON'T LIKE YOU? suck it up, princess. not everyone is going like you in this world. you'll never be perfect. neither will i. people can hate me for all i care.


i'm sick of helping people. i try to dedicate my time, trying to help them and if they are not going to appreciate anything i do for them, then fine. why do i bother trying to do anythin anyways when the results come back all the same. it's a waste of effort. i'm done with this shit. i hate stupid people. stupid people like you, get on my nerves. you have issues. stay away from us. you and your depression. what depression? all you want is sympathy and we have no more of that to give to you. complain all you want. what makes you think we care at all? your problem isn't our problem. end of story.


and some people like to poke on other people's business. thinking they are doing the "right" thing and try to be a "good" friend or sort of "superhero". well honey, you can poke anyone's ass for all i care, but don't mess with me and my friends. get it? gosh, have i said that i hate stupid people?


back to my life.

seems like i'll be going to US next month. well, not 100% yet, but my sis told me that she's called my parents and they might let me go. oh yeah, she's going to take leave for like a month and i'll be going to new york, florida (disneyland baby)and miami. and guess what? we're going on a road trip. yeah, somewhat like what paris hilton and nicole ritchie do in simple life. that's hott. and bitches, i'm soo going to get you stuffs from there of course *nods* FINALLY, for once the credit card is USEFUL lol. just pray that my parents will allow me to go. cheers.

study? don't bother. i'll most prolly start revising in the morning of the exam day. like today, in church, there were bunch of teens who wore dresses like they're going to big party, i mean, come on. you are not here to party but to meet god. but you know, at least they are being true with themselves rather than some people who boast about how religious they are, but in the end of the day, they are just bunch of creeps who want to fuck around. STUPID. FAKE. STUPID. i just hate these people. pardon my ignorance.


oh and btw, i'm just talking about people in general, you know, not particularly to anyone who thinks that it's always about them because they think they deserve the fucking attention or whatever and if you think i am, you know, for all i care, you can suck my VIRGIN dick. *nods*.