it's 636 am in the morning and here i am, a boy with no life blogging his life away.

The Sharp Hint Of New Tears.
I try to choke them back/But it's useless/I am useless against them/They are beating me with ease. - Dashboard Confessional. if it would make it easier for you, i can drown you in your own pool of misery so your suffering will end. i don't get it, but i try to understand. i don't feel like it, but i do it anyway. i am angry, but i conceal it. i am sad, but my eyes are dry. i hate, but you can't tell. what about you? you don't get it, but you don't care. you don't feel like it, so you don't. you are angry, so you yell. you are sad, so you cry. you hate, so you hurt. are you done? are u fucking done yet?

so the strumpet in kembangan and toa payoh have been asking me to update my blog. the thing is, my life is too boring that i didnt even know what to update, so i come to the last resort which is the thing that im really best at, which is WHINING.

get that feeling like you have so much to do? you can't really think.. plan.. figure things out? but when the time comes, you realize i have nothing to do. and you regret not doing anything, simply because you thought you had so much to do? Urgh. sometimes it's obvious when i'm really "out of it", but.. really i'm always out of it! maybe that's why i screwed up so many things, i could never focus, i could never really take the step back and have a look at what's up, what's down. maybe that's why i spend those frustrating hours trying, just trying to figure things out, or simply see what's right in front of me. but I never find the answer

everyone is buying christmas presents. and i dont have anyone to give for christmas present. damnit. i want christmas present. i want to decorate the chirstmas tree. i want to sing christmas song. i love christmas. i hope it rocks. that's the only thing that i am looking forward to anyway. if you're reading this, buy me christmas present and i'll give you a free sex. VIVA.