crushes are the root of all things evil for the absent/hopeless romantic individual in all of us. proudly - maybe whorishly - i can say i've had a few crushes in my day. even when i've tried to remove myself from admitting to "i've got a crush on her" syndrome, it still happens when i don't want it to happen. what chemical imbalance allows for my mind to fall for the things i can neither have nor should have is beyond me. my first crush was on a girl in my english tuition class. she was of course, the prettiest girl in the class. she moved away some times later - breaking my little heart and leading me to many months of countless searching and hoping upon her arrive.

but see, crushes get us past the regrets we have for dating the school tramp or the heartless bitch that stole your love and virginity and make life worthwhile again. that is, until you talk yourself out of every reason why that person would like you and then you start alienting yourself as far away from this person so that there is no impression that you like them. admit it, you've all done it. this is what makes the world go round and round.